Monday, September 15, 2008

Weigh In Monday Binge

I'm down another pound. I stayed for the meeting. The leader talked about self talk and about changing our negative thoughts into positive thoughts because our thoughts become our actions. Very good meeting.

Have you ever had a day that it didn't matter what you ate you were still hungry? I don't mean just wanting to eat to make yourself feel better about something but really hungry? Well, today was one of those days. Knowing I would be weighing tonight I did well food wise. But, on the way home I needed something from Dollar General and while I was there I bought regular sour cream Pringles. Then I drove thru Arby's and got not one but two ArbyQs. I came home and ate them both and the entire can of chips. I'm so sick right now, physically and in spirit. Why did I do such a stupid, stupid thing??? OMG they were so good. I could have had them, just not so much.

It is binge mentality, if there is such a thing. I was doing really well, I haven't binged since starting WW. I don't know why I did it. I'm not more stressed than usual. I'm disappointed that I'm not losing more but then I seldom stick completely to the plan, I use those 35 extra points. However, the weigh in ladies assure me that I'm doing well. I know I'm not getting enough exercise. I started walking then turned my ankle last Thursday so I'm not doing that now. How does one turn their ankle, just walking to one's car in a paved parking lot. I'm thankful I didn't fall but the my ankle hurt terribly for a few days. It is still swollen and purple.

You would have thought if I was going to binge it would have been when I hurt my ankle. There you go blog buddies, I've lost my mind and don't know where to find it. Maybe, I'll be able to put this behind me and start over tomorrow. I hope so.


MaryFran said...

Do not beat yourself up over your chips and Arby's binge. You did it, it's done. Move on. The only thing I advise you to do. Really look at your thoughts and emotions that brought you to order, buy and eat that food. And really examine how you felt afterwards. Turn a little speed bump into a positive learning experience. This journey is about learning about our bodies and how we work. Learn from your experiences!

And remember, most people say, "tomorrow is a new day, I'll get back on track tomorrow." I do not say that. When I binge or just go off the plan, I say to myself, "It starts over right here and now!" Each minute is a new start!

You go girl! You can do it!

Deborah said...

Been there, done that. I'm with ya on the binge. Every time I do that I feel terrible afterward physically and mentally. All you can do is start over the next day. Put it behind you and get on with the program.

The loss is great! Don't let it discourage you that it is not what you want it to be. The experts say that if you lose 1 pound a week it will be easier to keep it off when you are finished than if you lose a whole bunch each week. Remember you are learning to eat healthier and this healthier life style is one that you want to hang on too. A healthier life style isn't something that can be accomplished over night. So hang in there and keep on, keeping on.

Chrissie said...

Good job on the loss.

JC said...

Well girlfriend like Deborah, been there done that and may do it again. I use to do the same thing but I just got sick and tired of being sick and tired afterwards. You will get there too. Remember quiting is not an option.