Weigh In Monday Binge

I'm down another pound. I stayed for the meeting. The leader talked about self talk and about changing our negative thoughts into positive thoughts because our thoughts become our actions. Very good meeting.

Have you ever had a day that it didn't matter what you ate you were still hungry? I don't mean just wanting to eat to make yourself feel better about something but really hungry? Well, today was one of those days. Knowing I would be weighing tonight I did well food wise. But, on the way home I needed something from Dollar General and while I was there I bought regular sour cream Pringles. Then I drove thru Arby's and got not one but two ArbyQs. I came home and ate them both and the entire can of chips. I'm so sick right now, physically and in spirit. Why did I do such a stupid, stupid thing??? OMG they were so good. I could have had them, just not so much.

It is binge mentality, if there is such a thing. I was doing really well, I haven't binged since starting WW. I don't know why I did it. I'm not more stressed than usual. I'm disappointed that I'm not losing more but then I seldom stick completely to the plan, I use those 35 extra points. However, the weigh in ladies assure me that I'm doing well. I know I'm not getting enough exercise. I started walking then turned my ankle last Thursday so I'm not doing that now. How does one turn their ankle, just walking to one's car in a paved parking lot. I'm thankful I didn't fall but the my ankle hurt terribly for a few days. It is still swollen and purple.

You would have thought if I was going to binge it would have been when I hurt my ankle. There you go blog buddies, I've lost my mind and don't know where to find it. Maybe, I'll be able to put this behind me and start over tomorrow. I hope so.

Keep going

Well I went to WW last night and lost 1 lb in the last two weeks. That may not sound great but I'll take it.

Our leader talked about portion control and about the need to measure. She said if we want chips, fine but measure out 1 oz or whatever the serving size is don't just assume you know what an oz. looks like. One lady said she loves the low fat Pringles and can and has eaten the whole can but she now counts out the number the can says is a serving and puts them in baggies so they are ready to grab in the morning. Good idea but would require some planning.

She talked a lot about zero point foods. Basically eating a bunch of zero points does become points at some time. She gave the example of the 10 calorie Jello packs. One is zero points but three are 1 point. Well, I don't know about you but I could eat five of those without even thinking about it.

WW has started a Lose for Good food campaign. For the next six weeks WW will donate one lb of food for each pound its members loses up to 1 millions pounds of food. I thought that is pretty cool. We were given a chart to put on our ref to keep up with our pounds. The leader said if we wanted to participate personally to contribute 1 lb of food for each pound we lose. Bring it the last night and she will take it to a charity that distributes food. I think this will be good motivation for me to stay on track for the next few weeks. I came home and got a can of beans out of the pantry to represent the pound I lost last week.

Well, don't have anything else to report, work is OMG busy. No time to visit blogland. For some reason I am expected to work! Imagine that. Year end will soon (9/30) come and go, life will return to normal by the end of October. I hope.

YEA!!

O.K. I did it and I'm proud I did it!! I weighed in last night and would you believe I lost 3 lbs!! The lady that weighed me in told me how well I was doing she said to expect a 1 lb lost each week. She said since I missed last week then I was well on target. The leader gave me a bookmark for coming back. She said it was for putting stickers on when I get stickers. HEY, I like getting stuff. I thought that was silly but if it works it works.

I stayed for the meeting. The leader discussed crazy hungry and over stuffed. She said we should eat in the middle of the two. Eat when you first start feeling hungry and stop for a few minutes after you eat half of your food. If you decided you are satisfied or no more hungry pains, then stop but if not eat half of what is left and repeat the process. Now I have to admit this sounds simple enough but I had never thought of it. I usually wolf down as much food as I can and 30 minutes later I don't even remember what I ate.

She also talked about and the other members discussed how to recognize physical hunger. I honestly am not sure I've ever experienced it. This week I'm going to

• wait until I feel physical hunger
• make healthy choices
• slow my eating down and actually taste the food
• eat half, wait, assess if I'm still hungry, if so, eat half or all if necessary.
• eat until satisfied not stuffed (this will be a major victory)

She also talked about how core foods can help fill up us and keep us full longer. Great meeting.

Thanks to all of y'all for hanging in here with me. It means more than I can verbalize. Consider yourself hugged. Have a great day.

WAY OFF

Picture me with a sad and embarrassed face. I didn't go weigh in last night and I haven't posted in a couple of days. WHY!?!? You ask. Because I have gotten so far off course. Sunday was a great day for old me but not so much for the new me. I was invited out after church with several old ladies (me included) and I ate like I always ate. At the time it didn't even occur to me not to!!! Red Lobster, did I eat baked or grilled fish, NO. I'm not even going to list all I ate because well you can just figure it out for yourself but no veggies were included.

Sunday night what I did hit me when I realized I had not written down anything I ate that day and I realized that Monday was weigh in.

Monday was a stressful work day so I had a huge lunch because I had weighed Monday morning and was up like five pounds so I was so discouraged I figured why bother.

Now I admit this is twisted and sick thinking but this has been my thinking for a long, long, long time. I spent Monday after work in tears. Today I'm trying so hard to get back on track. This is my greatest challenge and always has been. Things are hectic at work and it seems like every button that can be pushed in me is by some idiot. Anyway, I'm posting at 12:09 p.m. to clear my mind instead of rushing out for all the food I can find.

I brought my dining out guide with me so I can figure out what I will have for lunch before I go. I've settled on Chic-fil-a, chargrilled ck salad with FF honey mustard dressing and a Coke Zero around 7 points total.

I checked the WW website and found the WW meets on Thursday night so hopefully I'm determined to go to meeting and weigh in.

WHAT IS A GIRL TO DO????

It seems that since Monday night all H_ _ L has broken loose at work. I have no one to grip at when I get home so I found myself griping to myself. To many deadlines, not enough help, stupid boss, dumb co-workers, and I will not even get started on office machines. All of that isn't true, my co-workers are not dumb, they just do and say dumb things and my boss isn't stupid all the time.

I didn't have the best of eating day Tuesday because I thought a Zaxby's salad would be a good choice. I was wrong!!! Almost my entire day's worth of points in one salad. Today is better because I used that dining out guide to help me. I decided first what I would get and got it. Of course the day is not over and my house is not cleared out of snack food. But, according to a girl at work she said she actually counts out 15 potato chips, if that is what she wants, and counts the points. She has a family so she doesn't keep separate food for herself.

Now on some level I know they said Monday night we don't have to buy special foods and all that but in my head I'm still thinking I have to clear my cabinets of bad food. I have a lot to learn. As for the 100 Day Challenge, it will just have to wait until I can get WW program into my head.

So far, I haven't binged in two whole days. I know that sounds stupid but it isn't. I so want to eat everything in site.

Hope all of you have had a great Wednesday.

BABY STEPS

O.K. I went to WW last night even though I almost didn't. It was Monday for heaven's sake!! I was tired from work. I didn't want to meet new people; just to get a cold shoulder or disgusting glance. However, what kind of whinny would I be, if after all my proclamation I didn't go. Knowing I was going to rejoin and thus, have to keep a food journal. I ate yesterday like a crazy woman because this is what I do. Enough whining.

I went and it wasn't all that bad. When I have gone before the workers seems disinterested in another person and the leaders were well, old and crabby ( Drill Sargent types). Let me tell you I was met by one of the most pleasant young women I have ever met. She turned out to be the leader. The weigh-in person didn't glare at me like I was a waste of her time. Best part, I don't weigh as much as I thought. Yes, 226 is a bunch but not near what I was expecting. Many people spoke to me and as I looked around I saw people my size and some larger.

I don't remember exactly what the meeting was about but I remember the kindness and enthusiasm of the leader. Apparently when you lose 5 lbs you get a sticker, the leader makes a big deal of it and asks the person getting the sticker how much they have lost and how they did it. I was amazed at how many have lost a lot. One lady about my age said she had lost 50 lbs over the last year, another was 40 over the last 6 months so I guess it just depends on a lot of factors.

After the meeting, the new people stayed and the program was explained. Right now I have several goals. One from my doctor, he wants me to get below 200. WW says to concentrate on 10% to start with and long term goal of 137. My personal goal is 123 but I don't know why I came up with that number. I admit I was overwhelmed by the time I got home last night but in a good way.

I didn't do any work on the 100 Day Challenge. To much stress just send me to food so I'll work on that this afternoon.

JC thanks for not giving up on me; I know your my soul sister.

Deborah thanks for coming by and leaving your encouraging comments and tips. You are a true blessing.

Everyone have a great Tuesday.